I enjoy being alone, but I don’t want to feel lonely
There’s a difference, and I didn’t understand it for a long time. I like my own space, my thoughts, my quiet moments. What I don’t like is feeling disconnected. I want meaningful conversations, not constant noise
I pretend I have everything under control, but most days I’m figuring things out as I go
I smile, joke, and move forward like I know exactly what I’m doing, but behind that confidence is uncertainty. I’m learning through mistakes, silent lessons, and moments of doubt. Maybe everyone else is doing the same, and we’re all just acting like we’re okay
I’m always there for people, but I rarely feel like anyone is truly there for me
I listen, I support, I reply fast, I show up. Yet when I’m tired or overwhelmed, I keep quiet because I don’t want to be a burden. People see me as strong, so they assume I don’t need help. I do. I just don’t know how to ask without feeling guilty
I act like I don’t care about attention, but the truth is I do
Not because I want validation from everyone, but because sometimes it feels good to know I exist in someone else’s thoughts. I can go all day feeling invisible, then one message or reaction suddenly makes everything feel lighter. I wish I didn’t depend on that feeling, but I’m human, and sometimes being noticed reminds me that I matter too.
My Regrets Of 2025
The year is coming to an end, without proper achievements, 2025 I regretted not taking proper actions.I was jumping from one to another without getting results, making my love ones suffer from my own mistakes.One thing I regrets must: is as a guy, not having money in my bank account, not even a thousand naira.I regretted not taking steps that will enable me make money, I regretted wasting time.